If you see or hear goodness from me, then that goodness is from The Creator. You should be thankful to The Creator for all of that. Cuz i'm not the archetect of that . . i'm only the receipient. If you see weakness or shortcoming from me, it's from my own weakness and shortcoming and I ask and fear the people to forgive me from that. - Mos Def
Thank you all,
Frank
@Stoner_Charm
Motivation . . . Plenty Won't Understand . . It's Straight
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
My Heart Won't Get My Mind Back But My Mind Can Get My Heart Back
Lifesaver asked, "Do you need to talk about it?" I replied . . . "I'll be fine. I'll never let anyone into my head. Have my heart all you want . . . " Now I have a heart . . I'm not a Scrooge or anything, but anyone can run my heart through the grinder. I've bounced back . . . this young body has mad miles on it. I've been through plenty . . . I almost built an immunity to heartbreak, believe it or not. There are times when I should be emotionally crushed but I'm not. I'm furious . . . at myself. For the most part I can read and react towards someones actions. I'll make mental mistakes and let someone get better footing than me on this uphill climb called life. That asshole will look down on me and show their true colors . . cut the rope and let me fall.
That isn't true for everybody but the few times it has happened to me that's how it went down. So excuse me for feeling the way I do but also understand where I'm coming from. The truth is, my feelings are mad sensitive. I can pour my heart into something but I know when to stop pouring . . lot of people can't do that. Scratching the surface of my feelings is like having teeth tied to the end of a horse and scaring the shit out of it. I don't want anyone in my business so I keep a straight face and cool composure most of the time. Gimme a few days of thinking and writing and I'm better. Better because I've seen another scheme someone pulled on me and won't be tricked twice.
No Matter How Cloudy, I see Through You Glass Niggas,
StonerCharm
That isn't true for everybody but the few times it has happened to me that's how it went down. So excuse me for feeling the way I do but also understand where I'm coming from. The truth is, my feelings are mad sensitive. I can pour my heart into something but I know when to stop pouring . . lot of people can't do that. Scratching the surface of my feelings is like having teeth tied to the end of a horse and scaring the shit out of it. I don't want anyone in my business so I keep a straight face and cool composure most of the time. Gimme a few days of thinking and writing and I'm better. Better because I've seen another scheme someone pulled on me and won't be tricked twice.
No Matter How Cloudy, I see Through You Glass Niggas,
StonerCharm
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Stay Hungry For Humble Pie
Soo . . I wrote this one day and I dunno why. I took a hit . . put on some tunes and this was the first thing to come to mind when I began writing . . Enjoy
There's a small window opening when it comes to success. It starts with a slight buzz; people mention you here and there. Then you get underground, or organic buzz as I like to call it. The real recognize the real hard work you're putting into your craft. Then the people you've been yearning to notice you, finally do and you're finally successful. Good Job! Pat yourself on the back, go get fucked up with your friends . . . You finally get what you've wanted and your hunger is satisfied.
"So sour is the limelight . . . " - Charles Hamilton
Once you get what you've wanted the bar for success if much higher. Now you have to maintain that level while EVERYONE's watching. It's a muhfucka . . . especially if your progress was watched from the ground up. When your hand waivers, someone's there to remind you, "Don't slip." I don't mean that literally . . like we all have assholes in our lives who love to rub failures in our face (haters i think they're called?). We can call those assholes "unfortunate situations." Bills you forgot to pay, upcoming birthdays you forgot, car problems, kids get sick . . the asshole you know will call you out during ALL of those situations. Is success all it's cracked up to be? Then you aren't even hungry anymore . . you're full but what's next?
There's nothing like that grind . . . I grew up so much this past year but deep down I feel I haven't grown at all. My main goal was to grasp control of my money, maintain this relationship, and rebuild my character. I've done well . . still working on some goals . . but as I get closer to the end . . I'm like, what now?
Money changes people. My changes were unintentional, nothing major to the public eye, but they hurt my soul. Those changes aren't qualities of Frank or StonerCharm . . smh . . no bueno. I've never displayed any of the changes, they would come up during my "unfortunate situations" . . . like I've been getting jealous or people . . for fucking what, dude? I don't even know why, I cannot answer that question. When I was hungry . . I wouldn't pay dumb shit like jealous or "he say, she say" any attention. That's a serious flaw . . and it will be changed.
To sum this up . . stay hungry for humble pie, but don't overeat. I recently humbled the shit out of myself. There were some situations previously which I should have taken control at the beginning like a former shadow of myself would have. Instead I let them happen and be three times as angry with myself but keep a cool composure. I will be more direct using my fury to power my message . . . coward beat around the bush and I. Will. Not. Be. A. Fucking. Coward.
No Room For Doubt, Cowards Days are over,
@stoner_charm
Frank
There's a small window opening when it comes to success. It starts with a slight buzz; people mention you here and there. Then you get underground, or organic buzz as I like to call it. The real recognize the real hard work you're putting into your craft. Then the people you've been yearning to notice you, finally do and you're finally successful. Good Job! Pat yourself on the back, go get fucked up with your friends . . . You finally get what you've wanted and your hunger is satisfied.
"So sour is the limelight . . . " - Charles Hamilton
Once you get what you've wanted the bar for success if much higher. Now you have to maintain that level while EVERYONE's watching. It's a muhfucka . . . especially if your progress was watched from the ground up. When your hand waivers, someone's there to remind you, "Don't slip." I don't mean that literally . . like we all have assholes in our lives who love to rub failures in our face (haters i think they're called?). We can call those assholes "unfortunate situations." Bills you forgot to pay, upcoming birthdays you forgot, car problems, kids get sick . . the asshole you know will call you out during ALL of those situations. Is success all it's cracked up to be? Then you aren't even hungry anymore . . you're full but what's next?
There's nothing like that grind . . . I grew up so much this past year but deep down I feel I haven't grown at all. My main goal was to grasp control of my money, maintain this relationship, and rebuild my character. I've done well . . still working on some goals . . but as I get closer to the end . . I'm like, what now?
Money changes people. My changes were unintentional, nothing major to the public eye, but they hurt my soul. Those changes aren't qualities of Frank or StonerCharm . . smh . . no bueno. I've never displayed any of the changes, they would come up during my "unfortunate situations" . . . like I've been getting jealous or people . . for fucking what, dude? I don't even know why, I cannot answer that question. When I was hungry . . I wouldn't pay dumb shit like jealous or "he say, she say" any attention. That's a serious flaw . . and it will be changed.
To sum this up . . stay hungry for humble pie, but don't overeat. I recently humbled the shit out of myself. There were some situations previously which I should have taken control at the beginning like a former shadow of myself would have. Instead I let them happen and be three times as angry with myself but keep a cool composure. I will be more direct using my fury to power my message . . . coward beat around the bush and I. Will. Not. Be. A. Fucking. Coward.
No Room For Doubt, Cowards Days are over,
@stoner_charm
Frank
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